Saturday, September 23, 2006
at this hour, i still can't seem to get to sleep... i am tired but my mind is filled with thoughts that keep me await.. is been awhile already... yesterday i watched "Revolving door of vengence" till 8am in the morning... the show is damn nice... i love HK drama series... and was woken up by my supplier at 1pm.. he gave me a call to remind me to go for his pdt launch... i went and clean up and left the house soon after...
the event was held at merchant court "forbidden city"... chat with ah ken all the while... lots of crap between us... at least it kept me happy and occupied for a while... also met mr lee as while... as usual... the beer topics start again.. ask me to drink before my lesson?? Crazy!! but tat's mr lee style... they are the few ppl in the same market who always bring my smile back....
after the event, eunice came and pick me up.. we went great world for lunch at country mana... the chix sucks!! but at least it filled up my empty tummy since i woke up...
after that we head for class le.. today class pretty boring.. i hate to sit at the back.. normally i will lose my concentration and will tend to fall asleep... indeed i did... or was it the after effect of the beer... opps i dun know... keke
next week i gonna be super super busy.. with stock take and more stuffs... hate it... when can i really rest... wanna go for a short trip... arghhhhhh
is been a long time i went clubbin le... it used to be a weekly event in our lives now is like a yearly event le... hahaha... am i gettin old or wat... but one thing amazing is when i listen to techno and drink... i can relax... smile and laugh... wat sia!!!
Somebody pls save me... i gettin more and more depressed with each days....
who can ever put back my smile to the catz i know?
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Monday, September 18, 2006
Another lazy Sunday... i actually woke up at 11am... my maid brought breakfast into my room... cause she knew i will not get out of my room when is my off day... i can sleep the whole day long...
After the breakfast... i sleep again...how i wish i can sleep forever! Till around 5pm... the stupid guy next room actually irritate me, sayin the music playin in my room disturb him... i was pissed! hey... i am only using a 2.1ch speakers...wat's your prob... and the best part is my mum actually side him and ask me to shut off the music... i was realli up to my head... i told her... " i am finally have my own time and rest at home... can't i have the luxury to listen to some music... " if like that... i might as well, dun come home... " I moving out!!!"...
I was so pissed that i stomp out of the house... i went to bishan alone... just wanna be alone... "sista" msg me... i do not wan to talk to anyone... just wanna be alone... he keep msgin me but i dun feel like talkin... i bought myself a 30 disc HK drama serial... plus a big bag of gummi bears!
I feel good after buyin all these... within a short while, my colleague called me and ask me to go to kallang to watch soccer match... is my supplier event... actually i dun feel like going but since i outside and dun feel like goin home... i took a cab and head to Kallang "The cage".
I finally called "sista"... had a long talk with him... he was askin me the usual question of what happen and why... i keep tellin him "you dun understand at all" he ask me to look on the bright side... if by lookin is so easy... i would have done that long ago... i talked till my tears floatin rollin inside my eyes... " I am tired"
I was realli sianz at the event... sat there alone watchin Chealsea vs Liverpool... till i notice somebody... somebody whom i was close to... i was really not in a mood... dun wanna talk to him.. i think alot of people there were wonderin how come we are not talkin...i dun know also... just dun know what to say also... after he disappear for a year... our frenship also worsen... lots of misunderstandin!! too many version of his story!
continue watchin epl... manu vs arsernal... during the whole event... my mind is jammed... family prob... work prob... frens prob... personal prob... i actually smoke for about six sticks of ciggi... i just couldn't stop... i need to get it out.. drank only 2 bottles... could not find the kick!
the event end at around 1am... i shook hands and bid bye to all my suppliers except him... i realli find no reason to talk to him still....
Reach home... watch "miami ink"... realli want to get tattoo le... then watch my HK drama series... seem nice!! my mind is super tired but just can't my eyes to close...
when can i have a peaceful night and sleep...
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Sunday, September 17, 2006
it's been one week since our misunderstanding at work... realli piss me off at work!! As usual... the real suspect is who elso but the "big fat smelly trash slut" who been bad mouthing me for the past one year... wat else she want?
I am really up to my head... if I not workin in this company... I will give her a tight slap across her face and cut her big mouth... she been sayin bad things about me till i lost someone... someone who.... " i dun wanna mention" anymore... it hurts!!! till now....
she say i act like some big shot in the company... try way and means to sabo me...gettin her partner in crime to do watever she can to put me down... say i got lots of guys outside... tellin others i will not be true to one guy... ya... keep on talkin...
i have lots of guy frens... u have? yes... you have! after bad mouth me and got him... slut!
i tired of such people around me... really irritated!!!
Nobody understand wat i been thru for the past few months... i am tired!!! Somebody ask me to go up and confront her... i say no... the moment i see her damn face... i feel disgusted!!!
today.. went to work as usual... but things is sort of ok already between me and "mama"... finally we are talkin... and the point is "hey slut... your plot failed"
lots of works to do.... rushin here and there... as usual... busy and busy
ended work at 7pm... while in a cab to bukit merah... saw jimmy in a glance while at the traffic light... called him.. he's on the way to way.. poor guy.. workin 2 job a day... mornin at travel agent.. night at legend (gay pub at tanjong pagar)... i promised him to catch up with him soon!!
met david... cheryl ... dav... tkw at bukit merah for our claypot rice... finally something to lighten up my days.. is actually a belated birthday for david... the meal was nice...
after drove to river valley to have a drink... there is a nice pub call "liquid kitchen"... nice place... nice drinks... friendly servers...and best of all... when there is goal on epl... 30% off on your cocktail... keke... i drank apricot brandy 7up and bailey with vanilla ice cream... really nice!!
wanted to challenge the tiger beer with vanilla ice cream... next time ba!!!
time to study....
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Friday, September 15, 2006
ended work at 10.45pm, was walkin out of the office... headin to mrt. halfway thru... was drag to a pub at middle rd by my colleague... haha... he was sayin that finally his galfren is workin late... and he can go out.. he is totally 100% control by his gal.. and everybody keep saying he " cannot make it "... he took up another few colleague challenge and went out... and he drag me along... while waiting for cab... Jimmy msg me "ni hao ma".... i replied " bu hao" within seconds... he called and asked why and talk and talk.. while in the cab... i was still yanking with him... i heard this damn song on the cab for the fifith time le... the song is by 3 door down " here without you "... this song been goin thru my head on and on and on....
i told jimmy that is good.. at least now yo called at 11pm... not 4am anymore... he laughed... he told me not to go drink everyday... i said no... it's been quite long since i step out... and i was kidnapped by my colleague... he was sayin lots of funny crap... sayin how we teach him bad... teach him how to drink "lambo"... i say you are the worse... when everybody had enough drinkin... you keep orderin.. and then all of us will be dead by then... those were the days when we were into heavy drinkin and boozing... wat sia... we chat till i reach the pub... as usual is a typical karaoke pub...
sat by the bar with my colleague... halfway thru... my colleague say he's leavin le.. hhis galfren is checkin on him... he have to rush back le... poor guy!!!
i was still msgin with jimmy... he was tellin me to take a break and go for a holidays...
i told him.. i wish i can... haix!!!
I only drink one small cup of beer... and left at 12am... i really a midnight cinderalla...
the pub is pretty boring in a way of another... sad chinese song playin nonstop...
perhaps the people there are not close to me... you know me i dun talk to stranger...
while on the way home in a cab.... i felt empty...really empty....
i dun know how to explain the emptiness... but is empty....
i was really hungry... no food... i never had my dinner at all... just have some gummi bear in my fridge and sleep...
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
been watchin kogepan on youtube for the pass few days... i did even know that this cute fellow got a storey and a show... it seem like his life is similiar to mine... i find kogepan very inspiring...
i also been watchin some funny japanese prank show on youtube as well... finally something can make me laugh and smile... my mum was even woken up by my laughter at around 2am in the wee mornin...
tryin to find someway to find back my smile which been lost for long... but i guess all these laugher is only temporary...
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been very tired again... everyday reach home at around 12 midnite on average... start to get sleepy whereever i go... slept on the mrt while on the way home from school or work... nearly missed my station... i start to get irratated when bus 73 start to make me wait... sometime have to wait up to half an hour for the damn bus just to get home... i just wanna faster reach home and lie on my bed... be it sleep or starring at my blank celing... i happy...
but is hard to get to sleep when i wanna...my bio clock is upside down already.
lost my morale... lost my sleep... lost my family... lost my frens... wat next...
talk to one of my supplier today over the phone... he was tellin me to get myself a life... stop stressin myself out... i tired but it dun work!!! He start by tellin his rubbish again by tellin me he got some bachelor fren to intro me... pilot la... biz man la... blah blah....
i ask him... pls stop... i reply " you tell me so much, also no use " i too busy.... any guys will be frightened by the way i work... the hours i put it...
i used to watch movie myself... shoppin myself... go gym myself... i almost like a livin zombie....
i tend to get tempermental nowaday without realising it... somebody pls kill me or knock me out so that i no need to wake up....haix....
life sux....
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Monday, September 11, 2006
wat a day!! start work at 2pm on sunday and end work at 8am on monday morning.... i dun know how i manage to survive... the whole fair really took a team of all ladies to finish.. incredible... the moment i reach home at around 8.30am... i slept like nobody biz...
just woken up at 1.30pm... ate so food... time to hit work.. have meetin then later school...
my supplier all call me superwoman... hahaha... i call this self torture!
Dear frens of mine... please come and support me for this fair....
thanks
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Saturday, September 09, 2006
***My Five Variable Love Profile***
Propensity for Monogamy:
Your propensity for monogamy is low.You see love as a gift that you should give to many.It's hard for you to imagine being with one person at at time...Let alone one person for the rest of your life!
Experience Level:
Your experience level is medium.You probably have had a couple significant loves.And you may have even had your heart broken.But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.
Dominance:
Your dominance is low.This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.You know a relationship is not about getting your way.And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.
Cynicism:
Your cynicism is medium.You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist.
Independence:
Your independence is high.You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.Having your own life is very important for you...Even more important than having a relationship.
The Five Variable Love Testhttp://www.blogthings.com/thefivevariablelovetest/
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Friday, September 08, 2006
***Your Stress Level is: 73%***
You are prone to stress, and you're probably even pretty stressed right now.
Life's problems seem to pile up on you, and this often makes you feel depressed and burned out.
Learn to take time to relax and enjoy life, even if things are stressful. It's the only wa you'll get through the bad times.
How Stressed Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/howstressedareyouquiz/
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