Tuesday, January 23, 2007
sometime i wonder what will drive you to sucide?
could be something tat cannot be solve...
could be something tat findin no point to move on...
I dun know... dun know wat to do... watever i do...i am always in the wrong... watever!!!
the courage of lookin down and not knowin wat will happen later... is in my head crusinin back and forth...
wat if the day of courage comes...
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Friday, January 19, 2007
after 3 days of full shift at work... i am so tired tat my back begin to hurt again... it was so painful tat could not get to sleep... went to take a hotpack and ease the pain... woke up by my mum at 4.30am cause i feel asleep while watchin TV... and the room light is on.. she nagged at me!!! decided to go back and sleep... but was woken up veri early by my suppliers... staffs... colleague...
Oh No!! Please let me sleep in peace... I am tired... Finally woke up at 1pm... went and cook some food (microwave food) and makan... watched Oprah Winfrey show... veri nice...
Been thinkin of my life for so long... kinda tired... tired of all the things surroundin me.. been askin myself lots of questions... really need to sort out my life... i was thinkin to go out of Singapore alone for a short trip to refresh myself.. Can I do tat???
after makan, back to my notebook, did some research for my MRA project... my back begin to ache again... my mum is not cookin proper food today... she cooked only nuggets and lots of rubbish food... please spare me... in the end ... i ended up not eatin again...
watched Ch U 7pm show... later Zhong Yi Da Ge Da got Ah Du... love him... so cool!! Ch 8 ... i watched "The Peak" quite nice... then my fav on Ch U "War and Beauty"... and Now Ch U "Spirited Away"... never get sick of the movie... even though i have the VCD...
time to rest... if not my back will start to ache again... Ouch!!!
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
woke up at 5.30am... bathed..changed.. take train to harbour front to meet "mama" to go for mgmt meetin at SAFRA... reached Harbour front, waitin for idah then went for breakfast at mac and jollybean... hungry!!
reached SAFRA at 9am.. sat down with "mama" and idah... just when i was about to get comfortable... my store director say change place and we were told to call out nos and change group... i ended up same group with Douglas... sianz wat sia!!
lots of presentation... tired... a lot of bondin game... then the second round of session, change group again... i ended up with douglas again... somebody pls save me!! we have to play this game that entangle all of us in a mess and to get it out without breakin the chain... i refused and try ways and mean to avoid holdin hand with him... dun ask me why...
it was a meaninful meetin... cause it was also my boss POD farewell session as well... a bit emotion there as well... cause after all he's the one who train me to where i am today... must be grateful..
after the meetin, still have to go back to store to do closin shift... dyin le.. cause damn tired...
when i reach the store... i just slack... cause really tired... help my cousin Susan buy 10 thumbdrive... about $288... wah!!! lucky got credit card... if not bankrupt!!
okie... sleep le... tomorrow got class... maybe after feel like watchin movie... I wanna watch "One Last Dance".... dun care... even go alone... i will go!!!!! CHao!!!
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
is a new week and is a monday... just as when i was thinkin.. damn good day cause can go back early... my damn manager never come to work... forever... wat the use of havin schedule when never follow... in the end.. i have to represent him go A/P meetin... hate meetin with POD... stressful..
went to suntec with uncle jimmy... he is damn funny.. had a china galfren but dun know how to read chinese... ask me to read his chinese sms by his "chai"... wat sia
had lunch with eric, hong ching and steven... eat chix rice... yummy... after which meetin with suntec folks... then the horrified meetin with POD..(POD is mybig boss) stand for Pierre Oliver Deplanck... now you know why?
Sha say our supplier is invitating us to Hong Kong for seminar but cannot go cause got stock take durin tat time... arghhhh wat sia.. i miss HOng KonG....
after the long meetin.. i am totally drained... hungry and feelin zombie... sha and teri drag me go do grocery food... bough a lot of frozen microwave food... no choice... no time to cook... poor me... also bought cup noodles... many diff version and flavor sausages... ham.. bacon.
i came home with all these.. my mum start screamin again... at home no food eat meh? i said got... but by the time i come home after work or school... NO more le!!! she signed... Loser!!!
today got class... veri veri tough subject... wish me luck... same group member as last time... lots of new classmates... got a bunch of veri noisy gals in there... kill them...
Saw Donna blog... salute her sia... take care of 3 kids... oh.. Donna ... if ya are readin this... dun wake me up at 4am... haaha...
Sleep le.. tomorrow another long day... meetin at mount faber... slack!!!
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Monday, January 15, 2007
been slackin... really slackin... dun even bother to answer any call other from familiar nos...
everyday is the same routin for me.. work.. makan... sleep... dream... haaha
listenin to ipod is my greatest self relexation...
not been goin out.. dun feel the need to call anyone... slack to the limit...
jerry called me today ask for a meetup or a gatherin.. i said "no la" ... lazy... he scold me slacker...
i really can't be bother about wat is happenin around me... he ask me bout eunice and the rest.. i said "dun know, cause god know!!" haaha.. i think he gave up talkin to me... opps...
did some shoppin at mphosis... bought shoes and belt... hell ya!!! cool!! I love shopping
back to school soon...
slackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
It's A Nokia... N73 (Music Edition)
Went to Bugis M1 shop after work to buy my new handphone... damn cool.. my fav colour.. Black hahaha... it comes with 2GB card plus 3.2Mpixel... plus Mp3 cutter... wahhaa!! Was suppose to meet up with my staffs for drinks but cancelled due to one of my staff scare of boyfren dun allow... tat the problem with having boyfren that control every single damn thing in your life... C'mon.. Get a life!! Damn
walked around bugis for a while... saw nail art done by computer printer... real cool design at only $20... the paintin is as usual ... the printin of the design is only 50sec... and is real nice.. i did mine in black and white graphic arty farty design... keke... there is this guy who is one of the partner of the booth look exactly like Mr Ng... got a shock.. but he a better lookin and fitter lookin than Mr Ng... haha... the good lookin was chattin with me and tell me that the shape of my nails is someone who is rich... but i say nope... he then ask me what kind of person I am.. i replied "I am fierce and hot tempered"... he say cannot la.. if like tat all guys will run off.. hahaa..
nice chat with him... but never gotten his name... haix!
Just after my nail session, called Sha up to tell her tat i gotten my new phone.. she ask me where i am... and both of us are at Bugis... she havin steamboat at liang seah street with her ex colleague... about to finish soon... we then met up at C.A.N cafe for some coffee or Tea... chatted there together with her ex colleague... nice session... I like to talk to interestin people.. keke
Headed home after tat... with my New N73...
Sunday was my Grandma 49 days after death... had a family gathering at IHM church.. all my cousin are there... my cute niece and nephew... my youngest nephew Christian is one cute fellow... i just stand beside playin with his cheek and he stretch his small hand out and ask me to carry him.. so cute!! During the prayer session.. i just don't know what happen, i cried... i still missed my ah ma... thinkin of her make me sad... i actually upload her video in my new phone.. everytime i watched... my tears started to flow freely...
I missed You... AH Ma... May you rest in Peace...
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Thursday, January 04, 2007
still can't believe that is 2007...
30th Dec 2006
took half day leave from work... went to my uncle place for family luncheon... it was nice.. chattin with my cousin.. funny is that i used to be such a distance from them... but after my ah ma death.. the relationship is better now... chatted with my cousin Timothy..he's an ex Mediacorp actor (starsearch fame) keke... one of good lookin cousin in my family... laughed and laughed over our childhood days... played with his son Christian... such a cute boy... silly him crawl and bang against a chair and cried... his cheek is so boucy... we all left my uncle place around 6plus... reach home.. tired... sleep all the way thru next day 1pm... wow
31st Dec 2006
wanted to go out with Cheryl and co for countdown... but decided not to as past years experience was so bad... traffic is a killer plus i am workin mornin next day... anyway cheryl is rushin for her sch assisgnment... so NO countdown... lots and lots of sms keepin beepin in with my cute Super Mario sms tone... kinda of irritated... finally my phone jammed... arghhhh... since then,... havin problems with my lovely N72 Nokia... my good fren Mr Teng Yong Fong called from NTUC AMK in the middle of his work to wish me Happy New Year.. tat was nice... chatted with him for a while... then continue cleanin my room... i was cleanin my room since noon.. thrown away more than 8 carton of rubbish... my mum nearly fainted...
1st Jan 2007
Happy Birthday Daddy... is my father's birthday... bought him a Nokia HP... went to work in the mornin... sianz... closed consignment and many other stuffs... went to AMK Hub after work to meet my mum, aunt and my neigbour... did some grocery shoppin... bought lots of diff of instant cup noodles... cause no food at home when i end work late... hungry... my mum was askin me to stop buyin as it is so embrassin as thou she ill treat me at home... hmmm maybe is true.. keke
2nd Jan 2007
work and work... aiyo... went to do some music shoppin.. my fav.. bought Take That Ultimate Concert DVD , Robbie Williams Concert DVD, Francis Ng new HK movie VCD... bored at home la...
3rd Jan 2007
work afternoon... got migrane cause never eat breakfast... hungry... ate at only 6pm with idah... ate Fish Noodle again... my handphone is offically dead... wanted to message Donna Happy Birthday... but damn Handphone... David came and lent me his N73... saviour!!! wah!!! gotta go and change new handset le... my colleague wanted me to go devils with them.. i was like i am so over with Devils day le... haaha... i dun even know how to drink now... i am an angel now... keke
can't believe how much i changed... who know i will become a nun soon... since i like forever single... haaha... should devote myself to faith...
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